Where Has It All Gone?

Restaurant      At Home Meal 

The other day my father and I were looking through my past purchases over the month. As a high school girl, my father expected  numerous tabs from beachwood mall and other clothes stores. Sadly,  I wasted one of my whole pay checks on nothing, but food and gas. To make the matter worse, the result of my mutiple gas purchases only occurred beause of my need to go out for food everyday during the weekend. This makes me ask myself multiple questions. Why do I eat so much? When is too much food too much food? How does restaurant food remain so appealing? Are the numerous food choices the attraction, or the fact the food comes from the effort of another? I find my impulse to eat out a result of complete laziness and my frustration with the limited choices I find in my own pantry. The most frustrating thing about meals is having to make a concoction that you, in five minutes, will not even want to eat. Then, after the meal, you must clean up. If you neglect this task, your parents run in yelling about how they "just cleaned the kitchen" (when really you cleaned it yourself an hour before). This leads to only further frustration and a complete ruin of the amazing meal you dreamed of having. So where has the money all gone? The money has gone to a hungry stomach and a lazy mindset.

Paper vs. Data Sheet

Deeper thinking results in severe migrane.

For Real?

After reading our novel Amsterdam, I can't help but question the sincerity of those around me. Vernon, who obviously remains a horrible friend to Clive, remains secretive toward his unfriendly ways in the eyes of his peers. How can we truly know people are sincere? Can one believe everything the other says? The truth is, we are all guilty. Everyone has there moments when disguising your true feelings is necessary in the situation.  I find this alot while working on the weekends. A customer will browse in and take there sweet old time. Occassionally, they will ask a question and argue for a better price on dog food. When I first started working there I ended up waiting on some nasty customers. The worst ones I have come to find either won't make eye contact or have their cell phones glued to their face.  However, being the loyal employee (who doesn't want to lose her job), I must smile politely and act as though they aren't being the most annoying person in the world. As I said, we are ALL guilty. However, I can't help but question where to draw the line. How can someone recognize a real smile from a fake one? One can never know what exactly goes through the mind of others. Although this can be frustrating, in a way it is a blessing. I would love to say people always tell the truth, but that would be me not telling the truth. Sometimes, it is just better to be fooled by a lie then face the ugly truth. 

Time?

After our poem assigned for class Monday, Ms. Serensky wrote a similarly themed quote that caught my attention in today's class. As I recall, William Penn quoted "Time is what we want most, but what we use worst." I have to agree, time plays a huge role in our lives. Ironically, I began thinking about the concept of time last night in my family room. This subject seems to bring upon endless questions that will always remain unanswered. When did we begin? When will life end? What is time? Like I said, we will never know. But, what should we do about this uncertainty? Penn implies that most people do not use their time wisely and hope to have more time rather than enjoying the time given. In a sense, I agree that many individuals take advantage of their lives without the recognition that their lives have to come to an end. However, striving away from this pessimistic mindset, I am a firm believer in the claim that everything happens for a reason. The time spent on one thing leads to the time spent on another. Why should one feel they have wasted their life away when they need certain events to prompt others? Time does set limits on ones' lifestyle. However, these limits prompt the accumulation of important things in ones' life. Time allows one to recognize what they truly care about. In a way, time limits discourage wasted time, but, rather, encourage one to use their time wisely. With the uncertainy time presents, one can only hope they use time to their full advantage.